Dear younger me
It’s been a long time. I trust you are well and that all is going fine in your preparation to come to Rhodes University. I especially hope that you are not only hearing dad but that you are listening to his advice about varsity life.
Remember when dad was talking to us about the dangers posed by varsity life and I shrugged his words saying how different could it be from the boarding school we grew up in? Well believe me when I tell you it’s an experience I did not anticipate.
You have always been the best because of your ability to surpass the rest. You have always been an individual, not a voice within a choir. But that is not what you did when you were met with different predicaments. You have always been able to say no when confronted with situations that conflicted with your values but that’s not what you did when Sean offered you your first ‘joint’, a taste of freedom or when she said “its ok, we don’t have to use a condom”. You divorced me and pushed me in a deep dark corner of your soul, only to cohabitate with this new persona who shoves drugs up his skin, fumes his lungs with dagga and within floods himself with alcohol and dances to the drums of lust
This is what my conscience says to me, resonates in my mind every day. It echoes so much I feel I am loosing my sanity’s grip. This is what has become of me and I hope that you are grounded enough to say no, to be who you are and not be taken by the hype. I am soiled and I pray that is not your reality forecast.
Lots of love.
Older you
It’s been a long time. I trust you are well and that all is going fine in your preparation to come to Rhodes University. I especially hope that you are not only hearing dad but that you are listening to his advice about varsity life.
Remember when dad was talking to us about the dangers posed by varsity life and I shrugged his words saying how different could it be from the boarding school we grew up in? Well believe me when I tell you it’s an experience I did not anticipate.
You have always been the best because of your ability to surpass the rest. You have always been an individual, not a voice within a choir. But that is not what you did when you were met with different predicaments. You have always been able to say no when confronted with situations that conflicted with your values but that’s not what you did when Sean offered you your first ‘joint’, a taste of freedom or when she said “its ok, we don’t have to use a condom”. You divorced me and pushed me in a deep dark corner of your soul, only to cohabitate with this new persona who shoves drugs up his skin, fumes his lungs with dagga and within floods himself with alcohol and dances to the drums of lust
This is what my conscience says to me, resonates in my mind every day. It echoes so much I feel I am loosing my sanity’s grip. This is what has become of me and I hope that you are grounded enough to say no, to be who you are and not be taken by the hype. I am soiled and I pray that is not your reality forecast.
Lots of love.
Older you
